Nekogirl's Realm

The absence of this blog may  have cause some of you to leave my friends list.  Others have stayed hoping I write again.  Lets skip the formalities and go to the story you all been so faithfully waiting.  As I write this it is 6:30 PM Sunday evening.  Sunday night TV in Japan has some comedies.  Yes I am in Japan again.

I cannot catch you all up to speed due to there is a lot that has happened back in Arizona that has played a factor in my life.  Both good and bad.  So lets keep it simple.  How are the children?  They are well.  Both of them have blossomed into womanhood were I will not and refuse to post images for they have been hit by adolescence.  Yes BOTH of them have matured.  Despite Hatsuko's age she came into hers very early.  If you need humor than lets keep it this way that Kiyomi is upset that Hatsuko has a bigger bust.  Both girls took it upon themselves to join me in the gym so both look very toned.  It did not take long for the American Boys to come a calling.  I had to be very blunt with many of them that they are not going to date my girls.  They began to make strides in school, making friends, learning to be like American Girls, just overall adapting.

Christmas came and went.  It was their first Christmas and did they have a ball!  I had the house decorated inside and out by a design team.  They learned to shop at Christmas, and we learned to bake at home.  Every other fourth day we baked something together.  Cookies, Cakes, Pastry's whatever we could do!  We sat at home had tea and sweets after a good dinner.  My heart was fulfilled with a new sense of the Meaning of Christmas.  I finally had the sense of what having family really meant.  And on Christmas Eve we even went to a church to hear the word of GOD.  Something that I had never considered doing ever.  My girls didn’t understand it but they enjoyed how people treated them.  I cant wait for Christmas 2009.

My firm shrunk in size.  Lay offs was something I had to do.  The necessary evil.  Those close to me will ask, well your rich why did you have lay offs?  I had to because the firm is under performing.  I cant keep paying peoples salaries from my own savings if there is no corporate income to justify it.  Its not about the money it is about the legality behind it.  Think of it as AIG.  AIG financial could not borrow money from AIG Insurance to offset its debt.  That’s against the law.

Now for two major changes in my life.

Lets go with the hard one first.  I am back in Japan with my girls for a death in the family.  My cousin passed away in a car collision.  We had the funeral recently.  I am skipping the details cause its hard on me.  But its much harder on my aunt and uncle.  Both are staying with me due too they have far too many memories of their daughter.  Especially for my Aunt.  She doesn’t eat so I am feeding her.  Right now she stays in bed and doesn’t get up except to use the restroom.  Listening to her cry has been hard.  My home has been a home of laughter, now when I hear tears it takes the color out of the home.  When its days that are overcast here, the house takes a eerie feel to it and when you hear her cry it becomes at times frightening as if a lost spirit you hear about as folklore is true.  You know the stories, they talk about the lady crying in the woods or by the river.  Her spirit unable to rest.  When it gets too scary I go and sleep with one of my girls.  And I look for the excuse to leave and return to my life in Arizona, and return to Crimson Dinzeo.

Return to who or what is Crimson Dinzeo?

I began dating again.  I stopped looking and said no more.  To hell with it all.  Since I wasn’t even getting sex why look for a girlfriend.  Then Crimson entered the picture.  A beautiful white girl from Georgia.  The southern bell with reddish hair, soft touch smooth white skin and of all, the Irish Heritage I so adore.  Her eyes moved me.  Her spirit alive and comforting.  It didn’t take long for me to see that I fallen for her.  And now my love for her has enveloped me.  So much so that I gave her a dozen roses but took one back and held it in my hand.  And as I looked upon her I got on one knee in a park by the lake.  And I told her that the bouquet she held is incomplete.  And like the bouquet my life has been incomplete.  I can give you a ring but I would rather give you this rose and complete the bouquet.  In other words Crimson will you marry me and complete me as we complete this bouquet?  And she uttered the words YES!

And then she kissed me.  I held her in my arms and she kissed me.  Tears rolled down my cheeks and my heart still pounding.  And all I could think was oh god, finally someone who loves me as much as I love her.  I cannot wait for the day when she lies down beside me in my bed in Arizona.  And as she will lay beside me in deep sleep I will whisper to her poetry and how much she means to me.  I will gather wishes and thoughts and whisper them in her ear.  Her head resting on my breasts as she cuddles me when we retire for the evening.

I told my girls about Crimson.  They are scared that Crimson may not like them but I assured them it is one day at a time.  Just for now lets get through the heartache here in Japan.  I will be retuning to Arizona for an APRIL wedding! 

OK we have been in America for some time.  We did the Southern California trip for the Amusement parks.  We shopped we cruised we saw the Grand Canyon and Sedona.  We did all the things a tourist would do despite this being my home State.  But I never gave the girls the chance to really taste the local flavor of Arizona.

So what was I to do?  Well I just decided now to play it by ear. 

It was a Saturday we spent the day out and about.  Very hot though couldn't really do much other than take in the Mall again and catch a movie there.  After leaving and a bit more shopping, I am feeling the pinged of hunger and I am sure the girls are too.  I tell them hey lets go get some Red Lobster.  But along the way Hatsuko asks about a place we driven past many times.  It’s a pizza joint were its all you can eat.  I for one don’t want to go there.  its like a Chuck E Cheeze place were you score tickets win prizes that are very cheap.  Now in Japan places like those give out real prizes.  Heck some will even give away a car.  Flat panel TV's, Laptops, Playstation, Wii's, IPods you name it.  It didn’t take long for Hatsuko to pout.  Then I realized its over 100 you cant really go outside to play and you got to let a kid be a kid.  I apologize to Hatsuko and say OK we are going.  She said no its OK, but I told her why I felt I was wrong and after explaining it to her she smiled and told me she loved me.

So we get to the one she really wanted to go and quite honest it’s a dive.  But for 5.99 per person they could eat all  they wanted and thank gawd they had fresh vegetables for me.  So they are playing Skee Ball and a few other things when a football team comes in.  And those boys can pack a wallop for preteens.  Now this is were it becomes Dangerous English.  There is 1 kid he's putting away plates of Pizza like there is no tomorrow.  And I am serious this kid is just going to town.  So much that his team mates begin to cheer him on in eating more food.  Then I hear the boys begin to chant and bang on the table "FINISH IT! FINISH IT!".  He finishes it lets out a mans size belch laughs his team mates clap and he says he is still hungry.  Now I have to be honest, this kid is obese!  And I see his parents, they too are obese.  So another plate comes it has slices and he goes to town.

Hatsuko and Kiyomi are amazed.  This kid is eating a whole plate of pizza slices and they can only watch as he swallowed it all!!!.  They are impressed.  Now the kid asks for more!.   MORE?  Yes More and another plate comes and like the previous plate the kids kept the  FINISH IT! FINISH ITI  chant going.  Then Kiyomi and Hatsuko join in but at first I am not exactly hearing what they are chanting until the parents are looking in our direction.  Kiyomi and Hatsuko were trying to say FINISH IT! FINISH IT!  But what they were really saying was FINI-SHIT FINI-SHIT!

I stopped the girls asap.  And I told them what they had said.  Both gasped and covered their mouths in disbelief.  I explained to the parents about how they don’t really know English very well and after hearing me translate they laughed and forgave.  Still embarrassed we left and it was silence all the way home.  But I do have to be honest.  my mind raced with curse words trying to see if there was any other phrases that matched so I can prevent Kiyomi and Hatsuko for doing the same thing in error again. 

But I bet you all right now.  Since I cant think of any the day will come when someone says something and they will pronounce it incorrectly and I will be like DAMN I should have remembered that!

This blog entry here is one were I am shooting from the hip.  You see I pre-write all my blogs save tem then post them.  Now that I am back in America I have much to write about.  Now tonight I write to all of you from Anaheim.  We are here for the end of the week doing the Disney Land to Sea World. 

While here I decided to visit the parents of my ex girlfriend.  They have been very good people to me and even stood at my side long after Candy and I went our separate ways.  While driving to their home I was taken by surprise the number of signs that read BANK OWNED on homes.  I sat back with George and Evelyn and introduced my girls.  We sat for such a long time and talked.  They told me how a few years ago they would awake on a weekend morning to kids running around the neighborhood as they played.  It was serene and comfortable.  It had been like that when they raised their own children.  Now the streets are quiet and people are gone.  No more laughter, tears or voices of the kids that played in the street.  Only 1 family with children in the neighborhood remains and there is no one for that little girl to play with. 

After my visit, I drove for a while and the other neighborhoods were the same.  Houses for sale.  In my mind I am doing the math and I can see the profit someone in my position can make off these houses.  I have the means and the experience.  This is a buyers market.  But for every vacant home I see there is a story to tell.  Then I come across a house with a U-Haul in the drive way.  Several adults carry boxes from the house into the truck and a little girl sits in the front yard on dead grass as she plays with a doll house and I see her packing the furniture of the doll house into a box.  Do I dare ask? 

This is one of those moments were ignorance is bliss.  I spent the rest of the day at Sea World.  My girls had a great time.  But the image in my head weighed so heavy on what I saw earlier.  There I am thinking wow I can monopolize on all these bank owned homes lease them for 3 years cause I see the market on a turn around in 2011.  But my mind weighed heavy still on the face of that little girl. 

Time for us to head back to Anaheim, but I am still messed up by that image in my head and I return to that neighborhood.  I see the house and the U-Haul is still there.  Very nervously I ring the bell and a lady answers and I tell her why I am there.  And I tell her that I saw their daughter and how much she weighed on my mind.  I was relieved to learn that the family in that home was actually leasing and they were moving to a home that they got a loan for.  They could finally afford a home so they were actually leaving for a good reason.  I was relieved.  I imagined a little girl living somewhere scary like I had lived in my youth.  And how I remember a bedtime story when my father had lived with my family before leaving my mom.  He told me about castles in the sky were on winged horses we would ride one day into the sky to live forever.  I would close my eyes and dream of those horses one day to carry me off to a new home and away from the one we had lived.  For many years even after my father left I remained hopeful of seeing them.  But there were no winged horses, and no castles in the sky.  No rainbows for me to slide on.  No clouds to jump on as I played.  No stars to guide my way when the moon came to say goodnight.

So tonight I sit here with room service removing the dish cart of food from our room.  The beds are turned down the girls chatting with each other telling each other the fun they had.  I see them on the floor laughing and using the digital camera looking over the pictures.  They glow with what they have seen.  We have been here since Thursday.  We are going to spend the day at one more park before we come back to the hotel rest well and catch a plane back to Phoenix Monday.

My thoughts though are on children.  How many children though will not play in the streets were laughter and joy is needed.  Tonight there parents perhaps lay in bed asking themselves how do I get through this.  Others feeling guilty for getting in over their heads.  While the remaining few who bought within their means and had their homes go from a fixed to an arm because it was in their contract now suffer cause they cannot get a loan for the market is very hard. 

I wonder how much stress they will bear as they try to sleep.  Were will I go?  What will I do?  How can I fail my child like this?  The though alone saddens me as I sit in this suite that Disney has built.  I feel for them.  I honestly do.  Yet, this is perhaps the kicking the ass our country has needed since 9-11 to get ourselves thinking straight.  I never saw shame in buying clothes at K-Mart.  I still drive a 1997 Plymouth Neon that I had since it was new.  I just maintain it like you are supposed to.  Yes it sits in between  a Ford Excursion and a Nissan Skyline.  Not the same Skyline I have at the home in Japan.  But I keep that little car cause it is what I could afford at that time.  I bought within my means.  Now my means are vast.  Despite my means I still shop at WAL-MART for what I need.  Yes my girls have better than I but I see an important lesson here that I must teach them before we go much further. 

To my two little Sparrows Kiyomi and Hatsuko I will teach you to live within your means.  Unlike the American Express affair back in Scottsdale, mom might not be there to bail you out.

Here I go again with many of you guys trying to pick up on me.  So lets try this in several languages:

I am a lesbian.  I am not interested in dating anyone male or female.  No I am not looking to date.  No I don’t want to speak to you on messenger.  No I don’t want nude pictures of you.  No lesbian doesn’t mean bisexual.  No I don’t need a man.  No I don’t want to meet your so called female friend which is really you trying to play the role.  No I will not set you up on a date with my daughters!

Soy una lesbiana.  No estoy interesado en fechar cualquier persona masculino o femenino.  Ningún no estoy mirando hasta la fecha.  Ningún no deseo hablarle en mensajero.  Ningún no deseo cuadros desnudos de usted.  Ninguna lesbiana no significa bisexual.  Ningún no necesito a hombre.  Ningún no deseo satisfacer a su amigo femenino supuesto que sea realmente usted que intenta desempeñar el papel.  ¡Ningún no le fijaré para arriba una fecha con mis hijas!

私はレズビアンである。  私は男性か女性だれでも日付を記入することに興味がない。  私は今までに見ていない。  私はメッセンジャーのあなたに話したいと思わない。  私はあなたの裸映像がほしいと思わない。  レズビアンは両性体を意味しない。  私は人を必要としない。  私は実際に役割を担うことを試みているであるあなたのいわゆるメスの友人に会いたいと思わない。  私は私の娘が付いている日付の置かない!

أنا سحاقية.  أنا لست راغبة في يؤرّخ أيّ شخص ذكريّة أو أنثويّة.  ما من لا ينظر أنا [تو دت].  ما من لا يريد أنا أن يتكلّم إلى أنت على رسول.  ما من لا يريد أنا صور ناقصة من أنت.  ما من لا يعني سحاقية [بيسإكسول].  ما من لا يحتاج أنا رجل.  ما من لا يريد أنا أن يلتقي صديقتك ما يسمّى أنثويّة أيّ يكون حقّا أنت يحاول أن يلعب الدور.  ما من لن يثبت أنا أنت فوق على تاريخ مع ابنتي!

Eu sou um lesbian.  Eu não estou interessado em datar qualquer um masculino ou fêmea.  Nenhum eu não estou olhando para datar.  Nenhum eu não quero falar-lhe no mensageiro.  Nenhum eu não quero retratos nude de você.  Nenhum lesbian não significa bisexual.  Nenhum eu não necessito um homem.  Nenhum eu não quero encontrar-se com o seu assim que - o amigo fêmea chamado que é realmente você que tenta jogar o papel.  Nenhum eu não o ajustarei acima em uma data com minhas filhas!

Είμαι λεσβία.  Δεν ενδιαφέρομαι για τη χρονολόγηση καθενός αρσενικού ή θηλυκού.  Κανένας δεν κοιτάζω μέχρι σήμερα.  Κανένας δεν θέλω να μιλήσω σε σας στον αγγελιοφόρο.  Κανένας δεν θέλω τις nude εικόνες σας.  Καμία λεσβία δεν σημαίνει αμφίφυλο.  Κανένας δεν χρειάζομαι ένα άτομο.  Κανένας δεν θέλω να συναντήσω τον αποκαλούμενο θηλυκό φίλο σας που είναι πραγματικά εσύ που προσπαθείτε να διαδραματίσει το ρόλο.  Κανένας δεν θα σας θέσω επάνω κατά μια ημερομηνία με τις κόρες μου!

Я буду lesbian.  Я не заинтересован в датировать любое мыжское или женское.  Никак я не смотрю to date.  Никак я не хочу поговорить к вам на посыльном.  Никак я не хочу nude изображения вас.  Никакой lesbian не намеревается bisexual.  Никак мне не нужен человек.  Никак я не хочу встретить ваше поэтому - вызванный женский друг будет реально вами пытаясь сыграть роль.  Никак я не установлю вас вверх на дате с моими дочами!

我是女同性恋者。  我不是对约会女性任何人感兴趣男性或。  没有我迄今不看。  没有我不想要与您谈话在信使。  没有我不想要裸体图片的您。  女同性恋者不意味两性体。  没有我不需要一个人。  没有我不想要遇见真正地是您设法扮演角色的您所谓的女性朋友。  没有我不会设置您在一个日期与我的女儿!

나는 여성 동성애자이다.  나는 남성 여성 누군가를 날짜를 기입하기에 흥미있지 않다.  아무 나는 현재까지 보고 있지 않다.  아무 나는 메신저에 당신 말하고 싶지 않다.  아무 나는 당신의 발가벗은 그림을 원하지 않는다.  아무 여성 동성애자도 양성을 의미하지 않는다.  아무 나는 남자를 필요로 하지 않는다.  아무 나는 진짜로 역할을 하는 것을 시도해 당신 인 당신의 소위 여성 친구를 만나고 싶지 않다.  아무 나는 나의 딸과 가진 날짜에 당신을 위로 놓지 않을 것이다!

Je suis une lesbienne.  Je ne suis pas intéressé à dater n'importe qui masculin ou femelle.  Aucun je ne regarde pas jusqu'ici.  Aucun je ne veux pas te parler sur le messager.  Aucun je ne veux pas les images nues de toi.  Aucune lesbienne ne veut dire bisexuel.  Aucun je n'ai pas besoin d'un homme.  Aucun je ne veux pas rencontrer votre prétendu ami féminin qui est vraiment toi essayant de jouer le rôle.  Aucun je ne vous placerai pas vers le haut une date avec mes filles !

Ich bin ein Lesbier.  Ich bin nicht interessiert, an, männliches oder weibliches niemand zu datieren.  Kein schaue ich nicht bis jetzt.  Kein möchte ich nicht mit Ihnen auf Kurier sprechen.  Kein wünsche ich nicht nude Abbildungen von Ihnen.  Kein Lesbier bedeutet nicht bisexual.  Kein benötige ich nicht einen Mann.  Kein möchte ich nicht Ihren sogenannten weiblichen Freund treffen, der wirklich Sie versuchend, die Rolle zu spielen ist.  Kein stelle ich Sie nicht oben auf einem Datum mit meinen Töchtern ein!

Förmiddag I en lesbisk kvinna.  Förmiddag som I inte intresseras i datummärkningen någon som är male eller som är kvinnlig.  Ingen I-förmiddag som inte hitintills ser.  Inget önskar jag inte att tala till dig på budbärare.  Inget önskar jag inte nakenstudie föreställer av dig.  Ingen lesbisk kvinna betyder inte bisexuell person.  Inget behöver jag inte en man.  Inget önskar jag inte att möta ditt så - den kallade kvinnliga vännen som är egentligen dig som är pröva att leka rollen.  Inget ska jag inte uppsättningen dig upp på en datera med min döttrar!

Well with the Hatsuko shopping affair behind us and my trek on deciding on what is best for the girls, I take them to a water park to return to the level of normalcy. 

Once there we change clothes and we are having fun.  Hatsuko is still feeling very guilty of the card issue but I tell her its ok.  Its not all her fault since it was I that gave it to her.  I really thought she had the maturity level to handle it.  Though it was done and over with I could tell that Hatsuko was not ready to let the issue die just yet.  So once more we had a long talk over it, after which I tell her the issue dies right there.

In the course of that conversation.  Kiyomi found herself eyeballing all the local guys.  One even came and up and tried to chat with her.  But do to language issues there was no real dialogue.  But the guy was cute!!!!  So that had her a bit alarmed.  Until then all she knew was Akira.  But here are American guys.  some a tad older.  They are cut in shape.  Some despite their youthful age are showing decent six packs and very fine pectoral muscles.  Guys never looked like that when I was her age!  Maybe that’s why teachers are running off with their students.  Just Kidding!

But she felt guilty.  I am like why?  Cause mom these boys out here are much cuter.  They are in shape, nice tan bodies, great teeth, and hair.  So I ask her.  Shall we stay then in America?  Hatsuko and Kiyomi both do a double take.  Stay here?  What about our school back home?  Our Friends?  Our Boyfriends?  But mom I don’t know how to speak English!  Hatsuko didn't miss a beat!  "Kiyomi!  Think about the boys and the shopping!  We will get over our guys eventually!"

Give it to Hatsuko to find a way to add shopping as her own form of emotional support!

That’s my girl!

I like shopping.  I like it so much that it’s a way of life for me.  So it stands to reason that my girls would fall into that realm.  Now when we got in country I knew the girls would have to get used to seeing Americans so I thought what better way than a trip to the Scottsdale Galleria.  There eyes lit up more than the fact I had mentioned we would take a trip to DISNEYLAND at the end of July.  Disneyland the happiest place on earth?  Not to a 10 year old with a valid passport and her own authorized copy of American Express and a mall!

If you are gasping, yup you guessed right!  Thank gawd for American Express security!

See this is what happened.  We three were together going from store to store and trying on new clothes shoes you name it.  I didn’t have them pack much cause I knew we would do some shopping here.  We were in a store named Industrial which sells clothes and skateboards.  Hatsuko knew that Corey loves skateboards.  So her thinking was all in Japanese lets get Corey something.  Ok I gave each girl their own AMEX with a max of one thousand dollars.  Well it’s a verbal limit.  They don’t know is each card has an actual 10K max.  Now let me give you a little run down on what this is all leading too.  Japan prices are in YEN and as you know America is Dollars.  SO if I were to go but Guitar Hero Aerosmith it sells for 49.99 plus tax.  In Japanese YEN to make it easy that’s 4999.  So when I tell the girls they can spend 1k on their AMEX Kiyomis thinking is ok 1K America she's doing the math and subtracting backwards from 1000.00.  Hatsuko is thinking Japanese so her thinking is counting back from 100,000.00 in American Dollars!

So Hatsuko buys Corey a new board and I even talk the store manager into shipping it to the military address Hatsuko has for sending Corey postcards.  For fun I let Hatsuko use the AMEX.  Big Mistake.  Now she feels the power of a charge card.  We go to GUESS, and we three are shopping.  Now in that store Kiyomi buys what she likes and the prices there its very easy to hit that 1K max limit.  Again I am letting them buy on their own so I can teach them how to budget  and use the PC at home to monitor what they buy and learn how to budget.  We go to Victoria's secret, and while there I am asking Kiyomi to be measured properly.  While that is going on Hatsuko is mom can I buy some lotions and body wash?  I say sure.  Not thinking anything of it.  Now Hatsuko doesn’t understand English very well but I see she is having a lady help her she's within eye view so I let it be.  I turn my attention to Kiyomi and we begin to have a serious mom to daughter talk.  Recently Kiyomi crossed over to womanhood.  So its time she was allowed to experience her womanhood.  Now that she's developing I allow her to explore more of a ladies choice in lingerie.  I tell the lady please bring us a large amount of choices we are going to do some major shopping.  In making that stupid statement I never thought to mention it was for Kiyomi.  That got to the ears of the other woman and she's like oh!  Now the ass kissing is going on I am relaxed I never paid attention that Hatsuko purchased a large amount of lotions and body cleaners but even got her  thongs she had originally wanted.  

Now here is the capper.  I am there sitting being waited on Hatsuko says to me mom there is a woman's clothing store over there can I go look please?  I asked her if she has her cell she says yes I say OK.  Now my mind is getting this done so we can join Hatsuko across the mall.  I'm watching the time holding my cell Kiyomi is being fitted some more I am translating from English to Japanese and vice versa and the cell rings.

Hello?

Hello Miss Yamada?

Yes this is Miss Yamada.  Who is this?

Yes Ma'am, this is Michelle with American Express Security.  I am sorry to bother you but I am showing a large amount of transaction occurring on the extended cards you had issued.  We are calling you to inquire if these purchases are authorized.

Ah yes we are shopping right now I am with my daughters in Victoria's Secret.

Oh really wonderful.  Right now we have a hold with a pending transaction from Lucky Brand Jeans.

That’s fine that should be my daughter Hatsuko.

Understood Ma'am cause the transaction is several hundred and they are holding her in the store.  Her card has had sales in excess of 1800 in the last 20 minutes to include an item purchased from Luis Vuitton  

She bought how much?

You know that one moment when you get a reality check?  This is one of those moments and it comes back and slaps you about the face for several seconds.  I went to Lucky Jeans and I joke you not she has this smile that can rival the Cheshire cat! 

Ma'am is this young lady your daughter?  Yes she is!  The manager oh American Express Authorized the charge.  She had bags and bags!  She went goofy in VS with the lotions for her friends.  Oh my gawd!!!!!!  No joke she had more bags than she can carry!  New Lesson in stupidity.  Despite good intentions on my part, I am stupid!  You don’t go given a 10 year old a charge card.  Especially if its an American Express!  I had to call for mall management to send up two personnel to Victoria's Secret so they can get all the bags to the Excursion.  Yes I have one.  Don’t talk to me about fuel prices I have had that thing for years and I only drove it today cause the girls wanted to ride in it.  I used Valet. 

Now the flip side.  One part of me wants to chew some ass.  But the other part of me also knows I need my own ass chewed.  So how did I resolve this?  I took away Hatsuko's card and now I will bend over and let all of you my readers of this blog walk up and take turns at kicking me in the ass for being a dumb ass!